It is finally my turn…to make a choice that will once again alter and reshape my direction in life. At least, for the immediate part, it’s going to affect where I will be over the next months and maybe couple of years to come. The lucky thing is – I worked for only 2 years and had to encounter this kind of major decision time. I know people who worked 10 years and had never encountered such a thing before.
Well, I am standing rooted at this juncture. Not entirely rooted to the ground with a firm mind but very very undecided about so many things. It’s a small decision – just a yes or a no but it’ll create so much difference to my life and many lives that have some relation with me.
I am exhausted sometimes and just want to break down and cry. Or like in the games, just click ‘restart’ and escape this part. And this is a time when I need strength. Lots of strength and some guiding light. I want to know who can give me some answers or at least shed some light at this time when I so badly needed some support and advice. Maybe I don’t need the answer to the ultimate decision but at least I want to find a reason to pick a side. Right now, I just feel that whether I choose left or right, it doesn’t make any difference.
Seriously, I am losing it. Sigh…..
Hang in there…~ It is heaven\’s way of training and testing your resolve and mental capabilities for much greater things to come in future. 🙂
这一段路,虽然在旁人眼里也只不过短短两年,但是我们所经历的,承受的,远远超出了他们的想象。经过了那么过不愉快,我开始觉得自己变得陌生,开始在彷徨之中失去了自我,迷失了方向。这段期间,我们在彷徨犹豫之间徘徊,内心的焦虑与不安,只有我们两人心照不宣。这回,如果我能够和你一般潇洒,我真会一无反顾的离开。我只在祈求,等哪一天,我家老爷能真心的点头,让我能够有尊严的离开。不要让自己抱着太大的不快,造成以后更大的遗憾。我们还年轻。灿烂的笑容,才应该是我们该拥有的宝藏。为自己好好加油。与萌思共勉之。