It is finally my turn…to make a choice that will once again alter and reshape my direction in life. At least, for the immediate part, it’s going to affect where I will be over the next months and maybe couple of years to come. The lucky thing is – I worked for only 2 years and had to encounter this kind of major decision time. I know people who worked 10 years and had never encountered such a thing before.
Well, I am standing rooted at this juncture. Not entirely rooted to the ground with a firm mind but very very undecided about so many things. It’s a small decision – just a yes or a no but it’ll create so much difference to my life and many lives that have some relation with me.
I am exhausted sometimes and just want to break down and cry. Or like in the games, just click ‘restart’ and escape this part. And this is a time when I need strength. Lots of strength and some guiding light. I want to know who can give me some answers or at least shed some light at this time when I so badly needed some support and advice. Maybe I don’t need the answer to the ultimate decision but at least I want to find a reason to pick a side. Right now, I just feel that whether I choose left or right, it doesn’t make any difference.
Seriously, I am losing it. Sigh…..
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